Our new reality is a relationship with God that we never had before we accepted Christ into our heart. Like all budding relationships, we need to get to know each other better. We need to get to know God better and we need to discover our new identity in Christ.
Philippians 4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
Dwelling on the past will not allow you to discover who God is and who you are in Christ. This relationship is new for you but God has been thru this with every child of adoption. He knows you better than you know yourself. He knows exactly what you need and when best to give that gift.
James 1:17 Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.
As a child, did you look in the department store window and see that one toy you wanted for Christmas? Then on Christmas morning you unwrapped that appropriate size box only to discover clothes? Your parents knew what you wanted and they knew what you needed. You are not a child anymore so what gift do you desire from God? Here, open it up, and discover it is a robe of righteousness. Don’t be disappointed, you needed that robe more than the worldly item you imagined.