John 15:5 I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.

I got nothing this morning. Not one word from the Lord. If I cannot bring you a word from the Lord what does that leave me? Nothing? What am I supposed to do with that? It is a place many Christians find themselves every day I suppose. Am I supposed to feel what they feel in this moment? Am I supposed to gain some insight as to how others deal with this moment? I don’t think so.

I was one of those Christians. I can remember how it felt to wander through life until something went wrong and then cry out to the Lord. Somewhere along the walk I discovered I was meant to serve. There was never any mention of vacation, time off, a rest in my schedule. This is not a job, I don’t get paid for what I do for the Lord. There is no reward for service.

What I feel is this. If I have to do this without You Lord, I don’t want to do it. This feels like cruise control. No foot to the petal, no tension in the legs, ankle or foot. The pressure is off. But what should I do with the direction for this devotional?

I am the one who committed myself to do a devotional every day. The Lord never mentioned anything about a schedule, calendar, days on or days off. I am the one who committed myself. If I am not true to myself, is that failing the Lord in service? No, but it denies the me I want to be.

I was a slothful servant. I do not wish to be that any longer. I have nothing to prove to the Lord, but perhaps I have something to prove to myself. So this is about me and if you get to understand me a little bit better, then that isn’t all bad.

2 thoughts on “Nothing”

  1. I think a lot of people can identify with this & perhaps gain an insight. This posting wasn’t for nothing, in my opinion. Thanks.

  2. Your post this morning reminds me of a song that we have sung many times…..”Take my cup Lord, I lift it up Lord, come and quench this longing in my soul. Bread of heaven, feed me till I want no more, take my cup, I lift it up and make me whole”. You said that the Lord had given you nothing…..I beg to differ with you. You displayed one of the greatest truths I have rubbed noses with…..when we are at our worst, God is at His greatest. At the cross, the world said, “Jesus went down in defeat”, but a Roman soldier proclaimed “truly this was the Son of God” and 3 days later proved that Jesus was the Victor….not defeated. Something just hit me….can you imagine what it was like to live in this world when Jesus was in the grave?
    Thanks for your post…you bared your soul to many “soul mates”.

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