Job 27:12 Behold, all ye yourselves have seen it; why then are ye thus altogether vain?

Yesterday I said this was my take away from the events of September 26, 2017. That will need some explaining. It is my take away, not yours. It is a Word from the Lord in my circumstance, not yours. For you to understand takes more than a quick quote.

My Lord God has blessed me beyond what I am worthy to receive. He has done more than just save me. He has given me a personal relationship which is everything to me. I would not want to continue in this world without Him. Luckily I don’t have to do that, He is with me.

He has given me a calling which is suited perfectly with the gifts that He has given me. I delight in both the gifts and the calling. He has placed me in a church body which gives me love, a ministry or two, and fellowship which is extremely satisfying.

I am so blessed, thank you Lord. Now where does vanity come into play? I’ve lost that connection for what it feels like to be something less blessed, less gifted, and out of sorts in a meaningful relationship. I am impatient with those who cannot see what I see so clearly. I have become vain in my speech to those who are still on the path but have not yet found their calling, developed those gifts, or just haven’t experienced the closeness of the Lord as He intends.

Tuesday the Lord reminded me how it feels to be out of sorts, disconnected, searching for answers and coming up short. I am no one special. The Lord is special. All that I am, all that I have, all that I love and cherish is because of Him.

Matthew 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

We get there the same way, it is no different for any of us. Jesus first.

Job 27:12 Behold, all ye yourselves have seen it; why then are ye thus altogether vain?

Yesterday was one of my worst days. For weeks now I have been waking up feeling absolutely blessed, inspired, and in step with the Lord. Yesterday I woke up feeling out of sorts, disconnected and troubled. Being who I am I started looking within myself to see what I had done wrong. Since God is perfect in all of His ways, I must have done something wrong. I couldn’t see it, I was at a loss for what was wrong.

My wife saw it right away. The one that knows you best always knows when something is wrong. We talked, I poured out my heart, I even wept. Nothing, nothing came to light.

When it came time to post my blog for the day I used one that I had held in reserve. It wasn’t right for those days I was inspired. I posted it because I didn’t have anything in me to give. I felt bad about it, but what is one more thing out of sorts but just one more thing.

“Get up, get out, you have things to do that are still service to you wife.” I told myself.

Everything I did outside the house went wrong. People weren’t cooperating. Things that should have been automatic and normal failed to produce expected results. Everything was out of sorts, or was it just me. Even the card reader on the gas pump was failing to act normal.

Then on the way home in the rain I was the 4^th car in a seven car pileup. Traffic had come to a stop on the interstate and a rather large pickup truck plowed into us. I had three vehicles in front of me and 3 vehicles behind me. I was “in the middle” of it all.

It was a miracle that no one was seriously hurt. Praise God for that. But what is my take away? What has the Lord to say about yesterday? Job 27:12, that is what the Lord had to say to me.