Ephesians 5:21 Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God.

I got my laptop back. Everything is as it was, all except me perhaps. I confessed my own personal fears yesterday. I admitted that I didn’t have my normal tools to lean on and that I had to trust in the Holy Spirit to lead me. As you might know, the Holy Spirit also speaks thru others.

I talked to my wife and sister about my phobia and the cataracts. Both love me but came at me in different ways. Both supportive, both loving, both looking into my fears and trying to calm them.

I also talked to two dear brothers in the Lord. They too tried to help, each in his own way. The offer to do anything to help, first in prayer and then in deed was offered. A different approach but with the same earnest love and consideration.

I have to admit that talking about issue helped. We go to the Lord in prayer and sometimes we do not hear what we want. That is just a fact. His speaking thru others often is difficult to understand because they use their own words and not His, but He spoke to me thru all of them in love.

I chose this verse today for one and only one reason, submission. It is something many of us have problems with, but if we truly want help, then you have to ask. Did any of them have the answer? No. It wasn’t about getting the answer, it was about being supported in love. I know the truth, I’ve known all along what the Lord would have me do.

John 5:4 For an angel went down at a certain season into the pool, and troubled the water: whosoever then first after the troubling of the water stepped in was made whole of whatsoever disease he had.

Knowing and seeing the stirring, I had to make the first step and it had to be my effort, not theirs. So I called a surgeon and made an appointment. A calm settled over me afterwards.

Knowing truth is not the same as doing truth.

My PC is in the shop, again.

Do I give up and let this stop me from providing a daily devotional?

I do not have the tools available to me that I normally use. I am handicapped by technology. What should I do?

OK, so I won’t be able to copy and paste scripture but I have the Spirit to guide me. Do I have to quote scripture to be spiritual? No, I don’t, I have the Spirit for that.

I should not be worried about my style, content and effeectiveness, not if God is leading me. But I do worry.  The desire to be faithful is strong in me. Nothing in me tells me to give up. It says overcome.

OK, so here it is. I have cataracs. I need surgery and I am afraid. I have this fobia about my eyes. I cannot stand someone even pointing to my eyes. So is this effort more about facing my fears or being an overcomer?

I don’t feel like I can do this myself. It would be easier for me if the Lord should send me a healer to cure my disease. But then I would still have the fear.

This feels a little like when I was afraid of being shot in Vietnam. Then I got shot and the fear went away. Sometimes you just have to face your fears on fears terms to see them thru Jesus eyes.

“Fear not for I am with thee.”